It's actually going to happen. I'm actually going to go to Durban. I think I have been in a state of shock and disbelief for the last week.
For almost the entire last year, I have been getting ready to go overseas. First it was the application process, then it was figuring out the right placement, and then it was the process of raising support. Now all the paperwork is submitted, God has clearly shown me that Durban, South Africa is where He wants me to be, and my support is almost 100% in. All that's left is for my visa and travel arrangements to be figured out, and then I just need to pack my bags, and leave.
It doesn't seem real. I told a friend of mine that support raising has been a huge faith building experience as God has shown me that He will provide if it is in His will for me to go to Durban. Now I am beginning to realize that maybe I didn't have as much faith as I thought. I don't think I actually thought this was going to happen. And now, as Christmas draws closer, it's beginning to seem a little more real. And I don't know how I feel about that. I am starting to get excited, but at the same time I am terrified. I have no idea what is waiting for me on the other side of the world. I know exactly two people in Durban (thankfully, they are two people that I will be working very closely with). I have no idea what sort of place I will be living in or what the food is like. I feel like I am stepping into the unknown.
Thankfully, I do know that God is with me now and has promised that He will never leave me nor forsake me, which means that He will continue to be with me in Durban. I know that I have people both here and in South Africa who will support me, encourage me, and help me along. And I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this is what God wants me to be doing and that He is in complete control. If I didn't know that, I would probably be freaking out even more than I already am.
Thank you, God, for your sovereignty. It is so comforting to me to know that You are in control of things, even when I try to do things my own way. You are good. Help me to remember that.
Just another quick note...
As I briefly mentioned above, my financial support is almost completely in. Thank you to everyone who has given. I have been both humbled and blessed as I see those whom God has led to join me in this ministry.
For almost the entire last year, I have been getting ready to go overseas. First it was the application process, then it was figuring out the right placement, and then it was the process of raising support. Now all the paperwork is submitted, God has clearly shown me that Durban, South Africa is where He wants me to be, and my support is almost 100% in. All that's left is for my visa and travel arrangements to be figured out, and then I just need to pack my bags, and leave.
It doesn't seem real. I told a friend of mine that support raising has been a huge faith building experience as God has shown me that He will provide if it is in His will for me to go to Durban. Now I am beginning to realize that maybe I didn't have as much faith as I thought. I don't think I actually thought this was going to happen. And now, as Christmas draws closer, it's beginning to seem a little more real. And I don't know how I feel about that. I am starting to get excited, but at the same time I am terrified. I have no idea what is waiting for me on the other side of the world. I know exactly two people in Durban (thankfully, they are two people that I will be working very closely with). I have no idea what sort of place I will be living in or what the food is like. I feel like I am stepping into the unknown.
Thankfully, I do know that God is with me now and has promised that He will never leave me nor forsake me, which means that He will continue to be with me in Durban. I know that I have people both here and in South Africa who will support me, encourage me, and help me along. And I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this is what God wants me to be doing and that He is in complete control. If I didn't know that, I would probably be freaking out even more than I already am.
Thank you, God, for your sovereignty. It is so comforting to me to know that You are in control of things, even when I try to do things my own way. You are good. Help me to remember that.
Just another quick note...
As I briefly mentioned above, my financial support is almost completely in. Thank you to everyone who has given. I have been both humbled and blessed as I see those whom God has led to join me in this ministry.
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